Author: carmadd74

Crushed Spirit


  • “CRUSHED SPIRIT”
    Don’t crush my spirit
    Don’t crush my soul
    It hurts too much to imagine I have to let go
    Reality settles and takes it’s course
    I find myself down in the dumps
    Full of remorse
    I have never lost faith
    But you take me there
    With that dead silence 
    With that look of despair
    It is as though everything you were is no longer the same
    It is as though God has left me with the devil’s game
    Sick, disturbing it maybe
    Taking me to a place I don’t want to be
    Get me out of this reality
    It’s not like the shows you see on TV
    Fake and scripted 
    This is real
    Life shucking you down
    Life forcing you to swallow its jagged little pill
    Tearing you until
    YOU
    no longer believe who you are
    Blackening your inside with its spiteful tar
    Never crush my spirit
    Never crush my soul
    Down for now but I will be made whole
    Faith is never fleeting 
    Love is forever and forever will you have your toll
    Your steps of life imprinted on me
    To rise up against doubt and claim victory!
    Life toils with me as it may
    But your love is stronger it will forever remain
    Stronger than the abyss of the unknown
    Thanks you Love for sharing with me the road I’ve always known

    Carmadd 
    Beautiful Struggle

    ” Only in Darkness Can You See the Stars.”
    -Martin Luther King Jr.
    #BeautifulStruggle #Strength #Life #Love #Growth

    Picture credit: Cina Roberts





Life is Spectacular!

Today I’m expressing my gratitude for this spectacular life. I am sitting here thinking about how my life hasn’t always been a cup of tea. I’ve made some choices that put me in bad situations. I have caused myself harm unintentionally.

I can’t forget about the curve balls of life. Damn, how many times I’ve swung over and over again missing those lessons each time. The hard lessons really hurt because you weren’t expecting them to affect you the way they did. I can think of a million hard lessons I’ve had to learn.

One curve ball was when I lost my Aunt Tessie. What a beautiful, fun loving soul. She was sick with Brain cancer and it seemed to happen so overnight. One day she was healthy and strong! A short time later she was on Hospice and we were all gathered around her in her living room. She lay there in the bed and we all watched her favorite movie,”Ghost”. It was somber but I felt the love in the room. I was happy I had the chance to spend that time with her and the rest of my family. Aunt Tessie died later that night. I know despite the pain and the reality of the sickness, there was peace in her home that night. Thinking about her death still brings tears to my eyes. It still hurts like heck because she didn’t deserve that sickness. Who does? Right.

I miss her and the lesson I learned from Aunt Tessie is to live your life and find joy in every single day. Life is beautiful and I’m so grateful for all the great people and things I have in my life.

I get down on myself and I remember to have gratitude even for the things that bring me heartache and pain. I start thanking God for all the little things and then suddenly my issues don’t seem so bad. I wake up and I have a job to go to each morning. I may not always feel so grateful about going but I go anyway. I’m thankful my alarm went off, I’m thankful for my home, I’m thankful for my family, I’m thankful for my safety. You get the point. Doing this practice allows me to express myself and embrace all the good things I have in my life. Being thankful allows me to see the spectacular life I have and gives me strength to deal with life’s lesson I have yet to learn. Carmadd

“Life is meant for spectacular adventures. Let your feet wander, your eyes marvel and your soul ignite.” -Unknown

#BeautifulStruggle #Life #Love #Gratitude #smile #Lifelessons

Happy Halloween 🎃

I love Halloween!!!
It’s Halloween once again and I love it for so many reasons. I love that once a year I can be anything I want! Dress up in a costume and be the super hero, a villain, an angel, a walking dead zombie.
It’s so fun and scary at the same time. It’s so awesome to see the kids dress up and trick or treat. It reminds me of a simpler time as a kid. Dressing up in a tight plastic costume and barely being able to see out of the mask because the cut out for the eyes were too small. The sacrifice was worth it at the end of the night. Dumping my pillowcase on the living room floor. It was like I struck “Candy Gold!” Oh the joys of Halloween as a young kid.
Now, I see the joy in being an adult and passing out candy on Halloween. I am a big kid. I dress up every year and yes, I eat the candy as well. I don’t want to get into why or why you shouldn’t celebrate Halloween. If you celebrate it’s cool, if you don’t cool. Life’s too short to argue about the technicalities of Halloween.
It’s a beautiful time of the year. Halloween starts the season of the holidays. Dia De Los Muertos as remember our loved ones that have passed away then we have Turkey Day and Christmas. Family celebration and togetherness through the end of the year.
So today, have fun. Dress up in a costume, decorate, place a jack-o’-lantern out this evening, watch a scary movie, take the kids out for trick or treating. What ever you do, have a happy and safe Halloween 🎃!.
Carmadd
“THERE IS MAGIC IN THE NIGHT WHEN THE PUMPKINS GLOW BY MOONLIGHT” -Unknown
#Life #BeautifulStruggle #HAPPYHALLOWEEN #Holidays #Costumes #Love #spooky #scary #Fun

You’re Someone Special

You’re Someone Special! It may sound like a cliche but it’s not used nearly enough! We hear it from others at times but we need to speak it to ourselves. Speak it out early in the morning. Start with your still inner voice everyday. Say it now, “I’m Someone Special” Too many of us let doubt and fear get the best of us. Yes, doubt, fear, negativity will continue to happen as long as we are human but when we build up the strength and believe in our worth it makes life’s issues easier to overcome. If no one has told you today, I’m telling you, “You’re Someone Special” Now belief that shit!!

“I seek strength, not to be greater than other, but to fight my greatest enemy, the doubts within myself”- P.C. Cast

“Strength come from within” Carmadd
#Life #BeautifulStruggle #Yougotthisshit #Selflove